When i cannot see his hand, i will trust his heart.

So every summer I have this determination to have that particular summer be the summer that I take my spiritual life to the next level. Where I'm consistently studying and being in the word everyday. And the summers a good time to make it a habit. Every summer I get to the verge of doing that and once I do, school starts and somehow being in the word everyday ends up being maybe once or twice a week.

However this summer has been a bit different. I didn't go to Lurecrest or Worldview, which are the camps that I usually go to and come back on that spiritual high. Those are the places that I always feel closest to God. Those are the places I really feel His presence.

So with that being said, this summer has been a bit unusual. In the past i've seen God's presence when I'm away from home and yet this summer He's showing himself to me in the midst of a very normal, uneventful summer. He's showing me that just because I'm at home doesn't mean He's not going to do extraordinary things in my life. I've seen God working this summer in places that I never would have guessed.

My mom is always telling me, when you can't see God's hand trust His heart. I always believed that but I feel like for a long time I've been having to just trust His heart, because I can never see what exactly He's doing in my life. And I actually feel like I see what He's doing with my heart. I see how He's molding me and changing me in a way that is going to glorify him. I feel like when I'm having to do things so out of my comfort zone and so out of character for me, its like I can feel Him walking beside me calling me to be brave, telling me I can't do it on my own, but He's there to help me. And He has put such wonderful people in my life to help me be brave and to walk alongside me and pick me up when I'm down so that I can keep growing and changing.

I truly feel like everyday my Jesus is wooing me and proving to me that He loves me, so that slowly I will be able to fall completely in love with Him, and realize that He is enough for me. That nothing in this world will ever be enough compared to the love of Christ.