My life lately

Every day, while I work I see the same view. It looks out over the west side of the mountain into the valley in Georgia. As far as my eyes can see there are trees, they are just starting to regain their leaves. I also see rolling hills in the distance. When I pass by the giant glass windows overlooking the view, I take a deep breath and say a prayer. Whenever I see this my heart years for that world out there. For something more than what this city or state has to offer. Something bigger than myself.
I love it here at Covenant. Please do not get me wrong, this is exactly where God wants me right now. But I can't help but long for the day when I am completely thrown out into the world unknown and asked to trust God completely. Not relying on my professors or any of the faculty here, or even the students who surround me. But wholly dependent on God.
Quite frankly I can't wait to leave the United States and experience things I never have before. It's really hard for me to sit in a classroom and look out and see those mountains and not want to get up and go. I want to go and serve the Lord, I wanna get out there and help transform the kingdom. Thats when I say a prayer and remember that, yes, that desire is a God given one, but right now, at this point in my life, God has called me to be one thing, a student. He wants me here at this place with these people, and he wants me to soak up all this knowledge and wisdom so I can use it to help further the kingdom.
Sometimes I am so focused on the future that I forget the here and now. I forget about the tasks set before me, in hopes that I can skip over to the ones I really want to do. The ones I see as more important in my messed up little mind. But in the big scheme of things, every little task is just as important as all the big ones.
It's hard to be here:



When I really feel like I need to be here:

Jesus, Help me to be content no matter the circumstance.