Today, I'm dreaming about shorts and Chacos weather. Sunshine and windows rolled down. I'm dreaming of free time to read good books, browse the shoe aisle at target, and watch movies with the roommates. I'm dreaming of a clean room, a clean car, a clean house. I'm dreaming of time when I can actually sit down to Skype some of my most favorite people, who live way too far away. Time where I can focus on the things that are really important to me. But instead I am camped out at my house skipping classes, work, whatever I have to to finish my Senior paper on NASCAR. If you ask before Friday how its going-- I may burst into tears like I've already done too many times this week.
I am trying to trust, trust, trust today as I have to do things I don't want to do that are really hard.
I'm trying to cling to the hope that HE is enough, even when I am freaking out and having panic attacks.
I am trying to rest in Him and what he's doing in me, even when its hard.
But really, I'm just seeing that I can try until I'm blue in the face but really what I need is HIM. Only Jesus. He has strength enough for me.
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